does life seem that curious?

my life is getting unpredictable..
sometimes i feel like i'm the luckiest person ever even though i'm neither poor nor rich. i'm in beetwen.
i have good friends around. i'm having good education. i have good parents which always support me all-time. i'd say i have everything I always wanted although its not almost everything but thats enough.

BUT

sometimes i feel i dont wanna be ever existed, i feel loneliness so bad. i feel i really dumb and selfish or else.

ya Allah plese bring me to the bright future which my parents always want me to be.
and I really wish that i will travel in the fuckin awesome whole world someday with my own money and i wish that i could have good life-partner.

please give me all of the goodness